Dear Ashley, you are my best friend

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Alex Smith

A collection of pictures of Ashley and I through the past two years

Dear Ashley,

You are my best friend, and you have been for ten years. It seems like so much time—and also none at all—has passed since I met you. You offer me so much happiness. I know that there will never be another relationship like ours.

Sometimes, I ponder the idea that we won’t always be as close as we are now, physically and emotionally. You won’t always reside next door, and we won’t always know absolutely everything about each other’s lives. You will probably be living somewhere like Maine or Massachusetts—anywhere on the East coast really—and I will be living in a small town close to home, or a big city as far away as I can get.

Thinking about not always being close to you makes me unfathomably somber. However, it also makes me curious. I wonder about what my life will be like without you, and become interested—ready to experience something new. That doesn’t mean that I don’t want you to be my best friend anymore, because I always want you to be my best friend, but thinking about something new also gives me butterflies in my stomach. Good ones and bad ones.

However, despite the fact that we won’t always live next to each other, we do now and that is something most best friends don’t get to experience. We have four more years until we move on from the lives we have spent fourteen years building here, and I can’t wait to make the best memories with you in the years we have left.

That doesn’t mean that I don’t want you to be my best friend anymore, because I always want you to be my best friend, but thinking about something new also gives me butterflies in my stomach. Good ones and bad ones.”

I want to go for a drive late at night, blasting music that we are singing along to. I want to go to the beach on a hot summer day, swim in the lake, and get ice cream afterward. I want to go out to dinner late at night after a show and awkwardly be the only teenagers in the entire place, but have no care in the entire world.

I want my kids to know you as their aunt because you are my sister and have been since we were four. I know that no matter what, even if we are on opposite sides of the world, you will always be my number one girl. You will always be the one I go to first.

I know that it doesn’t matter how many other friends we have, we will always be like Riley and Maya, or Joey and Chandler. You will always be the first one I want to cry to or laugh with. I will always unload all of my problems onto you, even if you don’t want me to, and you will listen because it’s who you are.

Even if we fight, which we will, and we have, I will always want to talk to you about it. It doesn’t quite make sense because you’re the one I’m fighting with, but you make me feel better nonetheless. You make me feel inexplicably happy, and your positivity draws me to you like a moth to a flame, so I will always want to be your best friend. But I don’t worry about that, I always will be.

So, no matter how far away we are from each other, you will always live in my memories of warm summer days and cold winter evenings. The crazy number of times we’ve gone to Starbucks or Target will always be close, even if you aren’t. I will always love you to the moon and back, because you are my best friend, and nothing can change that.

With all my love,

Alex