One more night spent on my computer, searching for some sort of future that seems like it could possibly fit me. I have scrolled through hundreds of colleges, majors, and career choices, but none that seem to fit me.

I have had so many conversations with my mom, friends, teachers, and others about what I could possibly spend the rest of my life doing, and none of them seemed to interest me. 

There were days that these choices took all of my free time. I sat in class contemplating whether or not I enjoyed the subject enough to major in it. English, history, math, and chemistry all circled my mind. Nothing. Nothing I could think of seemed right to me.

I felt as though I needed to pursue something that was familiar and common, I was scared to step out of my comfort zone and look into different options. I began looking into majors I could actually see myself doing, but still, nothing seemed to stick. I would think of majors, and then turn them down. 

I did not want to spend my entire life mad at myself, regretting the past and wishing I had done more. I wanted to be able to say that I truly loved my life and everything about it. This realization seemed to have helped me figure out what I wanted to do. 

I realized that this is my life, and I had complete control over it. I was so scared of what people would think if I went into something uncommon. I didn’t want to have to leave my friends and family, but I realized that I come first. 

Who cares what people think? I know that with this choice, I will be happiest. I will be taking what I love and changing it into my future for not only college but the rest of my life. 

An incredible amount of stress was lifted off of me once I figured out what was the right fit for me. All of the tears and anger of the past transformed into happiness and satisfaction; I finally knew what I wanted my future to look like. 

While I would label myself as a people pleaser, I finally put myself first; I realized that my future is in my own hands, and I can take my passions and run with them. While I still have a year to affirm any decisions, time flies. This is my life, and I am finally going to stop caring what others think of me and do what I know is the best choice for me.