I watched us fall apart

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Losing you hurt the most because I saw it coming.
I felt in the pit of my stomach, some voice telling me to let go; as hard as it gets, I don’t look back.
The inseparable bond that once was is now gone, but I believe you still think it is there.
I don’t know how to tell you I cannot be there anymore because truthfully, I don’t know why.
I don’t know why I had to take a step back from you, but I knew that it was for the better and that greater possibilities would stem from it. I knew we both had to grow.
It still hurts because you were the light that I lost. I knew I could confide in you; we trusted each other. We were once always by each other’s side. We were best friends.
I realized I needed to stop putting time and effort into our friendship when I know it would not grow. I know that the end was coming, but I didn’t expect me to be okay with it.
It still hurts because you were the light that I lost. I knew I could confide in you; we trusted each other. We were once always by each other’s side. We were best friends.”
I am okay.
I trust that the voice in my head will lead me in the right direction; I genuinely believe that it is on my side. So, as much as I will miss you, I know it’s for the better—for both of us.
You still talk to me, confide in me, trust me.
It makes me believe that maybe I am wrong. Maybe the voice telling me to let go is incorrect and is plotting against me. But I know it is right. It has to be right because I knew that I couldn’t be around you anymore.
You changed, and you expected me to change with you. While I was figuring myself out, you assumed I would drop everything for you. Normally, I would. I would drop everything for you to have a shoulder to cry on, to have someone to listen, but I never received anything back.
When I needed you the most, you were not present. At times I needed to convey my sadness and frustrations, you would respond with “same” and then continue to express your sadness and frustrations.
I needed you, but it almost seemed like you didn’t care. That is when it was evident to me I needed to take a step back. Slowly, I started to realize I had better people surrounding me who seemed to genuinely care.
I miss you. I wish we could have somehow prevented these circumstances, but they were necessary. I realized I need to water my own flower instead of watering the dead ones.

Rylie is a junior, and this is her first year writing for The Central Trend. She spends almost all of her time laughing with her family or friends. She...
This is beautiful ry!
Omg! This is so beautiful and I relate to this sm as well