My life has been a never-ending cycle.

I do pretty much the same things every day; I go to school, then dance, and then I do homework. I even have a routine for the weekends. My schedule is so full I have almost no time to do things with my friends and family.

Sometimes I feel like I am stuck in a clock that starts over each week.

I am so ready to break this repeating cycle. I am so ready to get out of the house and experience things on my own. I am so ready to explore the beautiful Earth that I live on.

I am incredibly excited to create my own stories and follow my dreams. I can’t wait to see what my future holds and what my path looks like.

I think.

I noticed that I was procrastinating when it came to making challenging and crucial life decisions about my future. It took me an excessively long time to decide what colleges to apply to. I am still deciding what college I want to attend in the fall.

It wasn’t until later that I realized why I was having such a rough time making decisions.

I am immensely scared of the unknown.

I know lots of people are afraid of the millions of possibilities the future can hold, but it scares me to point where I almost don’t want to leave my mom’s basement.

My head is constantly being bombarded with questions and what ifs. What if I don’t get a decent job? What if I don’t make any really good friends? How do I survive on my own?

The embers of my fear slowly grow hotter as I get closer and closer to graduating.

When I go to college, I will be leaving behind everything I know and love. I will be in a completely new environment. I will be entering a new chapter of my life that I have no idea how is going to end.

A quote by Georg Buchner reads “We are only puppets, our strings are being pulled by unknown forces.” I don’t think a quote could better explain the overriding thought in my head.

In order to get through this frightful feeling, I must remember that life is about learning new things. It is about moving forward and facing fears head-on. Besides, millions of people have done it, so it can’t be that bad.

It is time for me to trek unfamiliar territory and create my own story.

As Deepak Chopra once said, “Relinquish your attachment to the known, step into the unknown, and you will step into the field of all possibilities.”