Should I stay or should I go?


As life progresses, there becomes a rhythm of what daily life consists of, creating a pattern. But, every once in awhile the pattern of daily life manifests into a boredom in which a rhythm can not satisfy, meaning it’s time for a fresh start.

In a recent event of my life, I discovered that it might be time to give myself a break, and in doing so, give myself a new start. As a high school student, my schedule becomes incredulously repetitive, and my days begin to morph into the next, making it indecipherable between one week and the previous week. For some people, this is okay– it certainly does simplify life. But in my case, I don’t want a life that has spun its everlasting time web around my life, trapping me into the simplicity of a basic life. I want my life to have meaning.

With that being said, it’s not as easy as going to the store on Wednesday instead of Friday that would bring me out of my norm into an existence that would give me my fresh start. No, it couldn’t be that small of a variance that would bring me out of my comfort zone. It’s always something bigger than that.

Which is in fact why I went to visit a nearby school to see if it would be a good fit for me. Walking through the school, I could see new opportunities for friends and activities I could be involved in, a life that I could be a part of. I wouldn’t have to move cities, and I wouldn’t have to move houses, just move schools. My life would change so drastically by just moving to the other side of town and starting anew in an unknown school with people I haven’t met yet.

As appealing as a newly constructed life sounds, it is also a surprisingly uncomfortable topic for me. I love my life at FHC, it’s home to me, and right now specifically, is the most at ease I’ve ever felt here. I have never met such kind people than the ones I’ve met at Central, and it worries me to no end that I could be walking myself into a trap if I decide to leave my comfort zone and happy place and go to a school that no longer feels like home.

I haven’t made a decision yet, but whichever one that I choose will put my life into an unexpected situation, and I’m okay with that.