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The Student Voice of Forest Hills Central

The Central Trend

The Student Voice of Forest Hills Central

The Central Trend

In this moment – finally

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Keyla Acevedo-Hargis
This is me with my acceptance letter to Northwestern University wearing my new favorite sweatshirt.

I couldn’t bring myself to do it.

I couldn’t breathe.

I couldn’t think.

One click of a button would determine if I was about to have one of the best or worst days of my life.

One click of a button would quite literally determine the outcome of the rest of my life.

I just couldn’t do it.

My finger was inches away from the mousepad, the cursor nervously hovering over the words “View status change” in a purple font. It was at that moment when I was reminded of every little memory that lit the path to bring me here, sitting at my kitchen counter, tears streaming down my face and hands shaking rapidly.

I remembered how my confidence skyrocketed in first grade as we entered the writing workshop portion of our day. My pencil would fly across the paper as fast as my six-year-old hand would let it—I still had to make time to do my finger spaces. I wrote stories about my first time on a big-kid roller coaster. I recounted the time my baby sister gifted me a charm to add to my favorite bracelet. I boasted over the (make-believe) time that my friends and I went ice skating and one girl scraped her knee.

I have always loved to write, but that was when my words finally had purpose.”

I remembered how in second grade, I made my own magazine. While my viewership numbers consisted of solely my two parents, I still poured my heart and soul into each monthly issue. I would draw every picture for every story and practice my tickle-me coloring that I learned the year prior. I wrote mini-articles about my favorite fashion trends of 2013 and about how the Cincinnati Bengals were doing that year based on the tone of my dad’s shouts in front of our TV. I tried to make a magazine for my class, too. But that didn’t take off. I should have known none of them would want to read about my Frozen obsession anyway.

I remembered when I published my first-ever article on this site. The energy buzzed through me like an electrical current. It widened my horizon and sparked a flame inside of me that I never knew could shine so brightly before then. I have always loved to write, but that was when my words finally had purpose.

I remembered when I happened upon what is now my dream school for a project in my sophomore English class. It had everything I could ever hope for and more. After five quick minutes of researching as much as I could about the school, I had my heart set on a future that seemed way too far beyond my reach.

I remembered the late nights spent going over every note I took in every class to pass with the highest grade I could possibly achieve. I knew that anything lower would not be good enough. I would scold myself for every grade that was below my standards and finally let myself breathe for a split second when things worked out according to plan.

I remembered the tears that had stained my face for the past three years. They were tears of self-doubt, of exhaustion, of fear for an uncertain future. They were tears pooling in the eyes of a girl who pushed herself a little too hard at times; but, she knew she wouldn’t regret it one day.

I remembered everything that led me to have my finger now hovering just above the mousepad. My stomach was doing somersaults faster than my eyes could blink. It was just one click of a button that would turn my world upside down if it wasn’t what I had dreamed of.

I knew I couldn’t wait any longer. I couldn’t just stay curious for the rest of my life. I couldn’t keep imagining what it would be like to get the “yes” that I yearned for. I couldn’t shield myself from the truth forever. I needed to breathe. I needed to take that final leap over the cliff that had been haunting me for so long. 

So, I clicked the mousepad. 

My heart stopped beating. The world stopped turning. It was the best day of my life.

I knew I always loved the color purple for a reason.

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About the Contributor
Sofia Hargis-Acevedo, Editor-in-Chief
Sofia is a senior entering her fourth and final year writing for The Central Trend. She has grown up a writer and cannot picture herself as anything but. Along with writing, she keeps herself busy by dancing. She has been leaping across the stage since the ripe age of two, and she is currently on the FHCVDT. For Sofia, endings are bittersweet. And as she approaches her final moments walking the halls of FHC, she will try her hardest to leave her legacy within the words she writes—the words that contain her heart. Her favorite book: The Song of Achilles by Madeline Miller Her go-to dessert: a piping hot brownie with a scoop of vanilla ice cream Her favorite season: Fall, without a doubt fall Has she gotten over her fear of birds after three years? Nope!

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    Shirley FaecherJan 26, 2024 at 10:45 pm

    WOW!!.🩵🩷💙❤️💜

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    Tim HargisJan 11, 2024 at 11:27 am

    ❤️ 💚🤍 💜🤍 ❤️

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